and it’s me. Once I am done, then it will be over and let well alone. I have been tjoepstil while I was in Durbs relaxing, but now I want to put this Assassins thing, the NewSpace theatre, my thing with F&M and the whole affair to bed.
Candice, Ray, Megan Carelse and even the Saint, while I appreciate your commitment to meganshead, I am feeling sidelined, and that’s not good. It’s my blog, wena. If you want one Big Friendly can organise. I have enjoyed the debate (a bit) but you guys are embarrassing me; your comments are so long! And well written! And boring. So, whether or not Assassins closes early, I don’t want to know about it anymore.
I’d like to make a few final points about this whole thing and I’ve had time to think, so here goes. Candice and Megan, you both make a desperate plea to people in the industry to support your work and you say that we should stick together. What a joke. I have been involved in the industry for twenty five years and it is notorious for not being supported by its own kind. Not even my friends and colleagues get it together to support my work. And it takes a very special effort from me to attend the amount of stuff I do go to, mainly out of my own pocket too. That’s because I want to. I am deeply committed to it. and I don’t get to half of what I should. Most performers I know are more than delighted to get an invite to opening night, especially if there are free drinks; are happy to skive comps off fellow performers, and come up with the best excuses in the world if they are expected to actually buy a ticket. So I think you are misguided when you appeal to fellow ‘artistes’ and believe that they could make or break a show.
I also think it is important as performers to realise that no matter how brilliant a show is, you can’t make people want to see it by playing the sympathy card. I certainly don’t want to see a show merely because the actors are going to starve. If that was the case, all the community theatre projects would be full to the brim and I promise you they aren’t. I am often the only person I know who sees any of them. It doesn’t work. People will go and see what they want to see.
Now, I think it is important to let you know that all shows all over the country are struggling to get audiences. Musicals, classics, comedies and kid’s shows are all playing to tiny audiences or closing early. When there is a recession, the last thing people spend money on is live entertainment. We are all in the same boat. And it’s sink or swim for the lot of us.
My last word is a response to something you wrote Candice, and I quote, "But I really hope that this whole business (my very public banning and all that followed) will eventually be nothing but a fun anecdote for parties." Although many, many people have dined out on the story and laughed at the ridiculousness of it, I was deeply hurt, shocked and thrown by the whole experience. It was frightening, hideous and very painful, with repercussions that included me being called into a ‘disciplinary hearing’ as well as me having to do an enormous amount of explaining to people I care about and respect. I was faced with what I consider to be awkward and difficult choices. Making it small and trivial is wrong. I need you to know that.